i remember that once i was magic on this site. wrote exactly what i wanted to say...got really good reviews from any other site reviewing me. but now....i'm really uninspired anymore. i think maybe its because, im not in the middle of some heart wrenching breakup or relational qualm. honestly...i don't think i know how to handle a normal relationship. the ups and downs aren't high or low enough for me, and that is sort of sick (i bet you'll think). perhaps i take too much pride in my ability to battle through the "hard times"-- what ever that means to a white middle class girl of suburbia. maybe it'll hurt me in the end. i know that feelings are either painful to the touch, or have over al been numbed out. sometimes i sit and i think how my body feels and i assume i've been drugged. an even as i'm trying to type this out i'm frustrated with the resounding cliches and its' gross inability to be condensed into one thought.
because if there'sone thing i know beyond all things, its that i'll never be concise.

more than yesterday|less than tomorrow